2. Forget About Good

Good is a known quantity. Good is what we all agree on. Growth is not necessarily good. Growth is an exploration of unlit recesses that may or may not yield to our research. As long as you stick to good you’ll never have real growth. Good is safe, comfortable, controlled. Growth is embracing uncertainty. We are so obsessed with good. Everything we do has to be ‘good’ and god forbid

1. Allow Events to Change You.

You have to be willing to grow. Growth is different from something that happens to you. You produce it. You live it. The prerequisites for growth: the openness to experience events and the willingness to be changed by them. This photo was taken shortly after I had stepped off the school bus, in roughly 1977-78. We lived in a small trailer park in Hampton. 161 Simple Farm Road. I desperately

The Elephant in the Room

Yes, I am aware that the letter spacing found in my section titles is horrific. I haven’t had the time, nor the desire to replace them with images or toy with javascript. However, I engage in staring competitions with “about.” It sits there on the screen, looking at me with such contempt. The spacing between the a and b smells of inbreeding. The b can’t decide to back up on

43 Days: Preface

So many things on my to-do list. This one is not on the priority list. Needed, nonetheless. So here goes. Starting February 1, I’ll break down Bruce Mau’s Incomplete Manifesto for Growth, as it relates to me. What does it mean to me? “Why?” Why the fuck not? Consider it therapy. The Incomplete Manifesto for Growth, was written in 2010. The “Manifesto Project brings together under one roof the personal

I Am, Therefore I KERN

The drum beats in the next room. Fortunately, I can’t see it from my bed. But I know it’s there. Sitting. Waiting for me to stand. The gap will glare at me like vultures protecting their kill. Occasionally, I will saunter into the office and make “adjustments.” At bedtime, it will once again be violated. Repositioned in such a grotesque manner that makes my eyes burn. My face gets warm.